Considering she'd nearly done it once, I knew she was capable. "Then I'll be on my best behavior."
"Oh, no, be on your worst. Because then I can train that out of you."
I sighed deeply, rubbing my cheek against her hair. Stubble caught on it. "I want to live to be an old man, with you there beside me."
"So you will, and so I will be."
The truth was, either of us could die tomorrow. But we knew it. Accepted it. Were unafraid.
For ourselves, that is. I know we feared for one another.
THIRTY-ONE
AT DAWN, as the others lay sleeping, I carried the vertebra and rib bone out to where Del had found them. Nayyib had dug up all the visible pieces of wood; hollows and indentations were left to show where he had worked, but the first whisper of wind would cover those up, leaving no trace of the wagon. A few paces away Del had found the bones. I knelt, set the two fragments aside, used the edge of my right hand to ease away more fine sand. After some time I gave up the search; the rest of the bones could be anywhere, carried away in countless simooms over forty years. That any had been left for our discovery was miraculous.
I smiled wryly, remembering that supposedly I was the jhihadi. It was a ludicrous idea—and utterly untrue. I was just a man who seemed to fit pieces of the prophecy certain religious zealots had adopted, and I'd come up with a good idea in channeling water to the desert. But anyone could have come up with that idea. It just happened to be me.
I sat there on the sand, vertebra in one hand, rib in the other. It was very difficult to believe they were from my mother; that with flesh over them, and muscle, tendon, ligament, not to men-tion the vessels carrying blood, they had been part of a living woman.
A living woman who had somehow sent a message to me in my dreams.
But I wished I could have seen her as she had been, before the borjuni raid killed her. When she had been woman, not a scattering of bones across the sand, or a speaking skull telling me to find her, to take up the sword.
I leaned forward, dug a pocket in the sand, pressed the bones into it. Feathered sand over the top. The next storm would bury them more deeply, or strip away the covering so that the wind, in its exuberance, might carry them on a journey.
It crossed my mind that perhaps I should have them sent back to the metri on Skandi, so she might have a little something of her daughter to bury or burn, according to Skandic rites, and to mourn. But my grandmother didn't strike me as the type of woman who would do that. Or appreciate the thought.
Love for my father had brought my mother here. Best they remained together.
I pressed three sword-callused fingers over the slight upswell of sand, bid her goodbye, then left her.
Some time later we rode out of the Punja, onto the road—this time I had no problem heading south—and into Julah. I suggested we put up the horses at a different livery, which we did, then went to Fouad's by way of alleys and entered via the back door. It startled Fouad half to death as we snuck in, but when he saw who it was, he settled. His look at me was oddly assessing; I wondered what he saw. I was still tired from the magery I'd used first on the storm, then to read my mother's bones, and was looking forward to a night's sleep in a real bed. Especially since I'd missed it the last time we were here.
Then Fouad looked at Nayyib, narrowed his eyes as he sought to figure out who he was; his face cleared, and he nodded. He recalled the kid from when he'd come looking for a healer. Del shut and latched the door behind us.
"Food, no doubt, and drink," Fouad said. "Yes?"
"Yes to both," I agreed. "Del and the kid will eat in the front room; how about you send something back to me? I'd rather keep my head down, after what happened the last time.
Fouad's eyes flicked to Nayyib again, clearly questioning his presence. The kid had been taught his manners: He bowed slightly, smiling. "Neesha," he said. "I am privileged to be the Sandtiger's student."
Fouad's eyebrows ran up into his hair as he looked at me. "Student?"
I shrugged, deciding now was as good a time as any to announce my intentions. "I plan to restore Alimat and take up my shodo's role."
"Alimat! But it was destroyed years ago!" Fouad shook his head. "And I doubt the other sword-dancers will let you. Particularly Abbu Bensir."
"If they want to take it up with me, they're welcome to. That in itself would provide a valuable lesson for the students."
"Watching you die? I would say so!" He glanced at Del. "You're amenable?"
Del mimicked my shrug. "Why not? There will be two teachers: a Southron sword-dancer and a Northern sword-singer. What other school may claim that?"
"And one student already," Neesha added.
Fouad wagged his head back and forth thoughtfully. "Well, you will most certainly draw students—until someone kills you."
I scowled. "I appreciate the confidence. Now, how about that food and drink?"
"I'll eat with you," Del offered, turning toward the back hallway.
Neesha grinned wickedly. "While I eat out front and attempt to charm Fouad's wine-girls."
Fouad grunted. "I suspect you'll have any number of offers be-fore the food's on the table. But come along; I'll introduce you as a friend of the new owners. That ought to be good enough for a discount." His tone went dry as dust. "That is, if they don't decide to offer themselves for free, as has been known to happen with certain regular customers I won't mention in present company."
Neesha, still grinning, threw a conspiratorial look over his shoulder at Del and me as if to make sure we understood what he was doing.
"Well, at least he's not entirely oblivious." I turned Del and propelled her toward the back bedroom. "I guess if he's got enough sense to know when we need some privacy, it won't be so bad having him ride with us."
Del, allowing herself to be propelled, merely laughed. "I don't think he's doing that so much for our privacy as he is for his own! Fouad's right: The girls will be fighting over him the moment he sits down. I rather think our new student will be most busy tonight."
I pulled back our door curtain. "I rather think we will be most busy tonight."
"And tomorrow?"
"Tomorrow we load the horses and head out again for the chimney at Beit al'Shahar. There's a sword I need to have a discussion with."
Del sat down on the bed and began to unlace her sandals. "If you can find it. The whole formation collapsed, Tiger. Your jivatma may be completely buried."
"Worth a look anyhow." I stripped off the harness, unsheathed the sword, set it point down against one of the bedside tables. "If I can't get to it, no one can; but my mother seemed fairly certain it could be found. I mean, who would have thought I could find her bones out there in the Punja? On the basis of dreams? It may be possible I can find Samiel, too."
"And if—" She corrected herself, "when —you do?"
"Dunno." I sat down, yawned, rolled my head against my shoulders, stretching tendons.
"He's still a jivatma, Tiger. You used Northern magic to make him—and now you have your own magic as well."
"A magical sword, wielded by a mage who is also the long-lost grandson of one of the Eleven gods-descended Families of Skandi—and who also happens to be the jhihadi." I flopped down against the bed. "Something for people to write sagas and sing songs about, don't you think?"
Del, barefoot now, undid the buckles of her harness. " 'The Sword-Dancer's Tale.' Well, perhaps."
"Maybe 'The Tale of Tiger.' "
" 'And Del.' "
My eyes drifted closed. "As long as my name goes first."
"Not when it's sung or told in the North, it doesn't."