Fralie began to feel an ache in her back again. If she lay there quietly, maybe it would go away… if she could keep from coughing. She was beginning to wish she could talk to Ayla, at least to get something for the cough, but she didn't want Frebec to think she was siding with her mother. And long explanations would just irritate her throat, and make Frebec defensive. She began coughing again, just as the contraction was reaching a peak. She muffled a cry of pain.
"Fralie? Is it… more than the cough?" Frebec asked, looking at her hard. He didn't think a cough should make her moan like that.
She hesitated. "What do you mean, more?" she asked.
"Well, the baby… but you've had two children, you know how to do these things, don't you?"
Fralie became lost in a racking cough, and when she regained control, she sidestepped the question.
Light was beginning to show around the edges of the smoke-hole cover when Ayla went back to her bed to finish dressing. Most of the Camp had been awake half the night. First it was Fralie's uncontrollable cough that woke them, but soon it became apparent that she was suffering from more than a cold. Tronie was having some difficulty with Tasher, who wanted to return to his mother. She picked him up and carried him to the Mammoth Hearth instead. He still wailed, so Ayla took him and carried him around the large hearth, offering him objects to distract him. The wolf puppy followed her. She carried Tasher through the Fox Hearth and the Lion Hearth, and then into the cooking hearth.
Jondalar watched her approaching, trying to quiet and comfort the child, and his heart beat faster. In his mind he willed her to come closer, but he felt nervous and anxious. They had hardly spoken since he moved away and he didn't know what to say. He looked around trying to think of something that might appease the baby, and noticed a small bone from a leftover roast.
"He might want to chew on this," Jondalar volunteered, when she stepped into the large communal hearth, holding the bone out to her.
She took the bone and put it in the child's hand. "Here, would you like this, Tasher?"
The meat was gone, but it still had some flavor. He put the knob end in his mouth, tasted, decided he liked it, and finally quieted.
"That was a good idea, Jondalar," Ayla said. She was holding the three-year-old, standing close and looking up at him.
"My mother used to do that when my little sister was cranky," he said.
They looked at each other, hungering for the sight of each other and filling their eyes, not saying anything, but noticing every feature, every shadow and line, every detail of change. He's lost weight, Ayla thought. He looks haggard. She's worried, upset about Fralie, she wants to help, Jondalar thought. O Doni, she's so beautiful.
Tasher dropped the bone, and Wolf snatched it.
"Drop it!" Ayla commanded. Reluctantly, he put it down, but stood guard over it.
"You might as well let him have it now. I don't think Frebec would like it too well if you gave the bone to Tasher after Wolf had it in his mouth."
"I don't want him to keep taking things that aren't his."
"He didn't really take it. Tasher dropped it. Wolf probably thought it was meant for him," Jondalar said reasonably.
"Maybe you're right. I guess it wouldn't hurt to let him keep it." She signaled, and the young wolf dropped his guard and picked up the bone again, then walked directly to the sleeping furs Jondalar had spread out on the floor, near the flint-working area. He made himself comfortable on top of them, then began gnawing on the bone.
"Wolf, get away from there," Ayla said, starting after him.
"It's all right, Ayla… if you don't mind. He comes often and makes himself at home. I… rather enjoy him."
"No, I don't mind," she said, then smiled. "You always were good with Racer, too. Animals like you, I think."
"But not like you. They love you. I do…" Suddenly he stopped. His forehead knotted in a frown and he closed his eyes. When he opened his eyes, he stood up straighter and stepped back a pace. "The Mother has granted you a rare gift," he said, his tone and demeanor much more formal.
Suddenly she felt hot tears in her eyes, and a pain in her throat. She looked down at the ground, then stepped back a pace, too.
"From the sound of things, I think Tasher will have a brother or sister before long," Jondalar said, changing the subject.
"I'm afraid so," Ayla said.
"Oh? You don't think she should have the baby?" Jondalar said, surprised.
"Of course, but not now. It's too soon."
"Are you sure?"
"No, I'm not sure. I haven't been allowed to see her," Ayla said.
"Frebec?"
Ayla nodded. "I don't know what to do."
"I can't understand why he still belittles your skill."
"Mamut says he doesn't think that 'flatheads' know anything about healing, so he doesn't believe I could have learned anything from them. I think Fralie really needs help, but Mamut says she must ask for it."
"Mamut is probably right, but if she really is going to have a baby, she might ask."
Ayla shifted Tasher, who had stuck a thumb in his mouth, and seemed content with that for the moment. She noticed Wolf on Jondalar's familiar furs that had been, until recently, next to hers. The furs, and his nearness, made her remember Jondalar's touch, the way he could make her feel. She wished his furs were still on her bed platform. When she looked at him again, her eyes held her desire, and Jondalar felt such an instant response, he ached to reach for her, but held back. His reaction confused Ayla. He had started to look at her the way that always brought a rush of tingling feeling deep inside. Why had he stopped? She was crushed, but she had felt a moment of… something… hope, perhaps. Maybe she could find a way to reach him, if she kept trying.
"I hope she does," Ayla said, "but it may be too late to stop the labor." She started to leave, and Wolf got up to follow her. She looked at the animal, and then at the man, paused, and then asked, "If she does ask for me, Jondalar, will you keep Wolf here? I can't have him following me and getting in the way at the Crane Hearth."
"Yes, of course I will," he said, "but will he come here?"
"Wolf go back!" she said. He looked at her with a little whine in his throat, seeming to question. "Go back to Jondalar's bed!" she said, raising her arm and pointing. "Go to Jondalar's bed," she repeated. Wolf lowered his tail, crouched down, and went back. He sat down on top of the furs, and watched her. "Stay there!" she commanded. The young wolf lowered himself down, rested his head on his paws, and his eyes followed her as she turned and left the hearth.
Crozie, still sitting on her bed, watched as Fralie cried out and thrashed. Finally the pain passed, and Fralie took a deep breath, but that brought on a coughing spasm, and her mother thought she noticed a look of desperation. Crozie was feeling desperate, too. Somebody had to do something. Fralie was well into labor, and the cough was weakening her. There wasn't much hope for the baby any more, it was going to be born too early, and infants born too soon didn't survive. But Fralie needed something to ease her cough and her pain, and later, she would need something to ease her sorrow. It had done no good to talk to Fralie, not with that stupid man around. Couldn't he see that she was in trouble?
Crozie studied Frebec, who was hovering around Fralie's bed looking helpless and worried. Maybe he did, she thought. Maybe she should try again, but wouldn't do any good talking to Fralie?
"Frebec!" Crozie said. "I want to talk to you."
The man looked surprised. Crozie seldom addressed him by name, or announced that she wanted to talk to him. She usually just screamed at him.